I cant set a clear tone to where I'm heading right now. What's it with her?? She almost forcibly made me develop feelings for her, then conveniently VANISHED from my sight. Now I love her so bad, it hurts. I miss her company, I have some beautiful memories that are played and replayed over n over in my mind when I see her face in my mind's eye. She had such an effect on me, I could see nothing else in this world, every other person was just an unwanted extra, irrelevant, for when i was with her, she was my world. I can't explain the pure joy i would experience when I'd see her smile, when she'd rest her head on my shoulder and make me listen to songs she liked. And they all sounded like the best I have ever heard just because they were her choice. I didn't upset her in anyway. Why did she suddenly disappear from my life. I still see her almost everyday, a stranger whom I have never known, never spoken to, never hugged, never loved.I'm headed nowhere. This is just my outlet where I can blow of my steam and misery. :/